well, screw this.
i seriously hate this.

really, truly, 100%, from the depths of my soul, sincerely, honestly, genuinly, beyond doubt, greatly, enormously hate this, indeed.

i can't believe that this is actually happening to me ya know; and i can't believe i'm just sitting here; letting all these stuff happening to me. is not good at all.

pent up anger.

uselessness.

locked feelings; which are just urging to emerge out.

being used. i especially hate this feeling.

all these emotions and feelings are like draining, and i know i said this many times, but it's like i just can't seem to forget; and i have no idea why. i seriously do need help, cause it's like, i'm going crazy. and i know it. i can't keep my mind focused; i just can't, ya know. and, i just hate it. i really do wanna get over this. but, somehow, i can't. the past has some eerie way of catching up with me and burble out. somehow. how dod i keep my mind off these things? i don't know. and, i feel hopeless. i'm putting myself down like over every little thing. and, it's really doing me no good. and, it's like im also putting others down too, so yeah, sorry ok?

this is damaging me in more ways than one.

for emphasis, i shall say this again.

i hate this.

what the hell.